Tuesday, December 27, 2005
life is weird.
sumtimes the things u wan elude u, n wad u dun really wan just arrives right in front of u. suddenly i think my situation now is the same as ziqian's, only dat we'r in reverse positions. haha! i think i understand how jasmine feels now cos i kinda feel the same. perhaps there'r a few differences between us, but i think on the overall, we'r on the same boat. i dun really think wad she's doing to zq is rite cos it's making him v confused. i mean,
how can u progress so fast if u'r still telling the guy u'r not sure? it really beats me. but since i'v only heard zq's side of the story, i'm not in the position to comment too much except to give zq advice when he asks for it, n b there for him when he nids a fren to talk to. after all, he was also there for me when i was damn stressed n things were not going well :)
seriously i dunno wad i wan. no, i shd say
i noe wad i wan, but i noe i cant get it, so now i dunno wad i shd do. i mean, it feels really nice to have sum1 who smses u all day, asking if u'r feeling better (cos i'v been sick since last tues), telling u to drink more water, slp early, smile more, all dat.. i dunno if it's cos i just miss being loved, or it's cos i kinda lyk him. i really dunno. is it possible to lyk more than 1 person at the same time? i think dat's possible, but the main pt now is dat the scales r not yet tipping in the direction dat makes me wan to take the chance. altho sum1 once told me dat
gan qing shi ke yi pei yang de, but i believe dat it's not true in all cases. i think given time, i can pei yang the gan qing for him, but the problem dat it's all v weird still remains n will remain.
altho i dun really noe if i believe dat God exists, when i pray, i believe dat i'm praying to sum1. when i was in church on christmas day, i prayed to God n said dat i thanked him when it all began so i will thank him now dat it has ended. i also asked him to
give me a sign. haha i dunno if it's God's way of giving me a sign, but i'v been dreaming abt some really weird stuffs ever since. but anw the dreams dun really make much sense so the "signs" r not v helpful at all. hahaha hm.. I HATE YOU!!!!!
random thoughts at 8:31:00 AM
